We made a decision to turn our wills and our lives over to the care of God. 

Each one of us comes to God with a past. In turning our lives over to him, we give him our entire selves, including our past losses and shame. We hand over to him every moment of disgrace, every tear we have ever cried, every word we wish we could take back, all the broken promises, the loneliness, all the dreams that died, the dashed hopes, the broken relationships, our successes and failures—all of our yesterdays and the scars they have left in our lives (Life Recovery Bible, Redeeming the Past, Page 909).

R U willing?